Wednesday, July 23, 2003

fuck i hate my life right now if life was i job i'd quit. tell god to shove his fucked up little job up his fucked up little arse and for his to disappear into oblivion because no one like his dummbass anyways!!!!!

Every thing is sooooo fucked up and i say i dont give a fuck and i dont give a shit and i quite or whateva but i dunno.

have you ever had feelings so intence that when the person is not there you feel like you entire being becomes non existant until you see them again and the feeling of sublime happiness comes over you and then u realize that nuthing is going to happen and u mite aswell give up and then you do and then there is another slight glimmer of hope and everything you thought wouldnt happen looks like is does and then the feeling ripps though you like a rusty bullet and every think disappears again and you just feel like dying

Tuesday, July 15, 2003

she says ask i asked PFFT! big help that was! i havent heard from him since woo! like i give a shit anyway! i know what he's gunna say "i think were better as friends" or something equally pathetic ripped out of a stupid cheesey american movie. i hate myself i so shouldnt of asked him i should have just shut up and played it my way! if i dont say anything he wont know rite? BULLSHIT! oh god i am having a REALLY bad day and i have run out of FUCKING CIGARETTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, July 07, 2003

im gunna ask one of these dayz. i wont give a shit im gunna ask. dont care about what they think or what i think is gunna b said. im just gunna forget it all and ask. who am i kidding i dont have the gutz. it's never gunna happen. nevermind all i said just forget i said it. blah blah blah so totally crappyblah blah blah

lol

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'm beggin' you to beg me
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'll shine up my old brown shoes
Put on a brand new shirt
Get home early from work
If you say that you love me
Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'
Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'm beggin' you to beg me
I'll shine up my old brown shoes
Put on a brand new shirt
Get home early from work
If you say that you love me
Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'
Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'm beggin' you to beg me
I want you to want me
I want you to want me
I want you to want me
I want you to want me

i would have stayed if i had a way to get home the next day...nuthing would have happened but still it would have been interesting to see if anything would have been said. lol shut up amanda your trippin