Monday, June 30, 2003

I'm back, Yay for you.... Here's another song or 2 or 3....

Aqeuous Transmission

I'm floating down a river
Oars freed from their holes long ago
Lying face up on the floor of my vessel
I marvel at the stars
And feel my heart overflow
Further down the river
Further down the river
Further down the river
Further down the river
Two weeks without my lover
I'm in this boat alone
Floating down a river named 'emotion'
Will I make it back to shore
Or drift into the unknown
Floating down the river
I'm building an antenna
Transmissions will be sent when I am through
Maybe we'll meet again further down the river
And share what we both discovered...
Then revel in the view
Further down the river


Circles

You saw me lost and treading water
I looked pathetic
I looked as helpless as a stinger without a bee
But underneath my presentation, yea
I knew the walls were coming down
And the stones that fell were aiming away from me
Hey what would it mean to you
To know that it'll come back around again
Hey whatever it means to you
Know that everything moves in circles
I saw you standing in my headlights (blink, blink, blink)
I thought I'd run you down for the weight you left on me
Instead I pushed rewind, reversed and drove away
And seeing you disappear in my rearview
Brought to me the word reciprocity
Hey what would it mean to you
To know that it'll come back around again
Hey whatever it means to you
Know that everything moves in circles
Round and round we go
Who would've known it'd end so well
We fall on and we fall off existential carousel


Wish You Were Here

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy...happy
I wish you were here
I lay my head into the sand
The sky resembles a backlit canopy with holes punched in it
I'm counting UFO's
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy...happy
I wish you were here
The world's a roller coaster and I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care but my hands are busy in the air


- Ode to a goldfish -
Oh
Wet
Pet


^Fucked if i know who wrote that^ wasn't me....

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Hi, my name is Shanna, I'm the coolest person in the world, I'm Manda's bestest friend, come to think about it, I'm mandas only friend..... I've taken over her website, She usually writes poems and shit to put in here so, here's mine,

I looked out my attic,
And saw my horse running around in his paddock,
So I went down to feed him,
But he fell over and died.....


Fuck i'm good...

I can't be bothered to write a song to go with it so, Here's 11am and Warning by Incubus, The coolest band in the world, with the hottest lead singer ever....

11am
Seven a.m.
The garbage truck beaps as it backs up
And I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away
Could I push rewind?
The credits traverse, signifying the end
But I missed the best part
Could we please go back to start?
Forgive my indecision
Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But then again, a day will come when I want off that ride
Eleven a.m.
By now you would think that I would be up
But my bedsheets shade the heat of choices I've made
And what did I find?
I never thought I could want someone so much
Cause now you're not here and I'm knee deep in that old fear
Forgive my indecision
I am only a man
Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But then again, a day will come when I want off that ride
Twelve p.m. and my dusty telephone rings
Heavy head up from my pillow, who could it be?
I hope it's you

Warning
Bat your eyes girl
Be otherworldly
Count your blessings
Seduce a stranger
What's so wrong with
Being happy
Kudos to those who
See through sickness
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by
I suggest we
Learn to love ourselves before it's
Made illegal
When will we learn?
When will we change?
Just in time to
See it all fall down
Those left standing...will make millions
Writing books on the way it should have been
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by
Floating in this
Cosmic jacuzzi
We are like frogs oblivious
To the water
Starting to boil
No one flinches
We all float face down
When she woke in the morning
She knew that her life had passed her by
And she called out a warning
Don't ever let life pass you by


Now that I have Fucked around with her site I'm going......
Shanna's Final Thought - Incubus is the Coolest Band, Sherbert is horrible, The newcastle knights kick ass and Mandas dog smells funny, Until next time, Take care of yourself and each other...

Thursday, June 26, 2003

Sometimes I wonder who he's picturing when he looks at me and smiles. When he brushes up against me like he just has to have physical contact, even if it's only for a second. when he chooses me over someone or something else. i feel a falsity. is it me ? do i have such little self essteem that i cant accept the he likes me in return? or is what i see the truth? it's ok for him to act that way because he doesnt have the side effects, his heart doesn't race everytime i accidently touch his bare skin like mine, his knees dont go weak at a kiss even if it was a slight disarster. I dont think i'm in love but i could be slipping. i think about him when he's not there and when he is i think bout him more. daydreams could go on for hours and when i close my eyes at night the first thing i see is him. he doesnt know the extent to which my feelings go. in fact i've never stopped liking him i just didnt want to risk getting hurt again and possibly hurting him aswell. i know that i'll get hurt i can see it. he'll fall for someone else like he probably already is and i'll once again be forgotten as always but i dont mind. i had my chance i guess, if you could call it that anyway. it wasnt really a chance but it happened and thats that. i just wish he could see how much it hurts.

Monday, June 16, 2003

" you don't see me"


This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
This is as hard as it gets
Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough

I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and achin'
And tumblin' and breakin'

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream a world where you understand
That I dream a million sleepless nights
Well I dream a fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights

I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends,
Nothing but good friends?

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

The way I wish you would

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met
And is this the last chance that I'll ever get

I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through
And not enough to you

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

i can’t get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can’t seem to find a way
To leave the love behind


I ain’t tripping
I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying
You know what I mean


You’ve kept me hanging from a string
While you make me cry
I’ve tried to give you everything
But you just give me lies


I ain’t tripping
I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying
You know what I mean


Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’d be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool
There’s nothing I can do
I’m such a fool for you


I can’t take it
What am I waiting for?
I’m still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
It’s true, I’m stuck on you


Now loves a broken record that’s been
Skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we have to play these games we play


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